dreadlocks.

they are babies. it's been about 3 weeks. i enjoy them very much. <3

100 benefits of meditation.

Physiological benefits:
1- It lowers oxygen consumption
2- It decreases respiratory rate
3- It increases blood flow and slows the heart rate
4- Increases exercise tolerance
5- Leads to a deeper level of physical relaxation
6- Good for people with high blood pressure
7- Reduces anxiety attacks by lowering the levels of blood lactate
8- Decreases muscle tension
9- Helps in chronic diseases like allergies, arthritis etc.
10- Reduces Pre-menstrual Syndrome symptoms
11- Helps in post-operative healing
12- Enhances the immune system
13- Reduces activity of viruses and emotional distress
14- Enhances energy, strength and vigour
15- Helps with weight loss
16- Reduction of free radicals, less tissue damage
17- Higher skin resistance
18- Drop in cholesterol levels, lowers risk of cardiovascular disease
19- Improved flow of air to the lungs resulting in easier breathing
20- Decreases the aging process
21- Higher levels of DHEAS (Dehydroepiandrosterone)
22- prevented, slowed or controlled pain of chronic diseases
23- Makes you sweat less
24- Cure headaches & migraines
25- Greater Orderliness of Brain Functioning
26- Reduced Need for Medical Care
27- Less energy wasted
28- More inclined to sports, activities
29- Significant relief from asthma
30- improved performance in athletic events
31- Normalizes to your ideal weight
32- harmonizes our endocrine system
33- relaxes our nervous system
34- produce lasting beneficial changes in brain electrical activity
35- Cure infertility (the stresses of infertility can interfere with the release of hormones that regulate ovulation)

Psychological benefits:
36- Builds self-confidence
37- Increases serotonin level, influences mood and behaviour
38- Resolve phobias & fears
39- Helps control own thoughts
40- Helps with focus & concentration
41- Increase creativity
42- Increased brain wave coherence
43- Improved learning ability and memory
44- Increased feelings of vitality and rejuvenation
45- Increased emotional stability
46- improved relationships
47- Mind ages at slower rate
48- Easier to remove bad habits
49- Develops intuition
50- Increased Productivity
51- Improved relations at home & at work
52- Able to see the larger picture in a given situation
53- Helps ignore petty issues
54- Increased ability to solve complex problems
55- Purifies your character
56- Develop will power
57- greater communication between the two brain hemispheres
58- react more quickly and more effectively to a stressful event
59- increases one’s perceptual ability and motor performance
60- higher intelligence growth rate
61- Increased job satisfaction
62- increase in the capacity for intimate contact with loved ones
63- decrease in potential mental illness
64- Better, more sociable behaviour
65- Less aggressiveness
66- Helps in quitting smoking, alcohol addiction
67- Reduces need and dependency on drugs, pills & pharmaceuticals
68- Need less sleep to recover from sleep deprivation
69- Require less time to fall asleep, helps cure insomnia
70- Increases sense of responsibility
71- Reduces road rage
72- Decrease in restless thinking
73- Decreased tendency to worry
74- Increases listening skills and empathy
75- Helps make more accurate judgements
76- Greater tolerance
77- Gives composure to act in considered & constructive ways
78- Grows a stable, more balanced personality
79- Develops emotional maturity

Spiritual benefits:
80- Helps keep things in perspective
81- Provides peace of mind, happiness
82- Helps you discover your purpose
83- Increased self-actualization
84- Increased compassion
85- Growing wisdom
86- Deeper understanding of yourself and others
87- Brings body, mind, spirit in harmony
88- Deeper Level of spiritual relaxation
89- Increased acceptance of oneself
90- helps learn forgiveness
91- Changes attitude toward life
92- Creates a deeper relationship with your God
93- Attain enlightenment
94- greater inner-directedness
95- Helps living in the present moment
96- Creates a widening, deepening capacity for love
97- Discovery of the power and consciousness beyond the ego
98- Experience an inner sense of “Assurance or Knowingness”
99- Experience a sense of “Oneness”
100- Increases the synchronicity in your life

arts & crafts

marble magnets

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/7Hiw86/www.notmartha.org/tomake/marblemagnets.html

polaroid magnets

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/49sO4M/www.ambrosiagirl.com/blog/tiny-polaroid-magnets/

rice/coffee bag burlap tote

fabric wallets/change bags

feather earrings

bracelets/hemp

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1MSGU0/abigailscraftshowto.com/2010/10/how-to-fingerweave-friendship-bracelets

i need to make time for fun things like these :)

more ideas will be added

before we die

what do we want to do? the list is really endless.

this is probably the best link i've stumbled across...

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/198bOF/candychang.com/before-i-die-in-nola/

i will make my bucket list one day, soon.

osama.

“I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” — Martin Luther King, Jr

america is celebrating, but we are foolish to think the death of this man will lead to anything, because this war is far from over, and we still have more problems than we know how to fix.

it's odd to me that so many thousands of people are genuinely happy about this. it's all so fucked up.

easter.

made by my wonderful mother :)

white cake with lemon icing.

i'm sorry i don't appreciate you enough,

and all the things you do.

i love you endlessly.

even if we didn't color easter eggs this year.

<3

things.

just a few...

cold leftover pizza makes me happy.

whenever i go shopping, i cannot wait til the minute i walk in the door and take all the tags off and try them on again.

every time i call my father i end up in tears, but this time it was a good healing feeling i had afterwards.

this is the first time i've ever told him i was in a relationship, happy, and wanted him to meet my boyfriend.

i am on a modified tee shirt rampage. no shirt is safe. but half of them i end up butchering and throwing away.

i am more and more tempted to get my inner upper arm inked.

my tax return was in my account when i checked at 10am this morning, but wasn't when i was up at 2am repetitively checking.

today was the first time a trip to victorias secret made me anxious. lingerie is overwhelming.

i didn't even get anything..yet.

thoughts.

i want an iphone, because everyone i know has an iphone.

i need to start tanning, and make sure i don't get a dumb lifeguard tan this year.

one day i will have a tattoo of a giraffe. i'm pretty much obsessed.

i'm going to be in nashville in two days!

i want to run again.

i can't remember the last time i bought a pack of cigs.

i've been in a horrible mood all day.

i need to call my family.

my brother turns six next monday.

i'm scared.

i want you so badly.

i hate that i can't know what people are thinking.

my inability to be motivated is annoying.

facebook is the devil.

i'm sad my nikon lens is broken again.

my mind goes a mile a minute.

i'm feeling insecure.

i miss my mom and i haven't even moved yet.

i'm glad i have both my arms.

i cry for no reason sometimes.

i really hope this works out.

please don't doubt me.

oldest living human.

i wanna live to be over 100.
the oldest woman in the US and maybe even the world is 119!
she is 100 years older than me! and healthy!
imagine how much you'd see in that many years.
how much you'd go through.
how many events you lived through.

how can the world end next year if this woman has seen this much of it?
i want to live for another 100 years...2111.

just keep living.

seeds.

The sweetest & most amazing blessings, usually take foooreeveeer. Be patient & practice your personal spirituality.
What you bring close to you, will stay with you. Surround yourself with honesty & good intentions. Dont get me wrong, sometimes you have stand firm against negative vibes. But, in your free will, choose a higher consciousness.

thanks tribal.
peace & love.

man's BFF.

If you can start the day without caffeine;
If you can get going without pep pills;
If you can always be cheerful, ignoring aches and pains;
If you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles;
If you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it;
If you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time;
If you can forgive a friend's lack of consideration;
If you can overlook it when those you love take it out on you when,
through no fault of your own, something goes wrong;
If you can take criticism and blame without resentment;
If you can ignore a friend's limited education and never correct him;
If you can resist treating a rich friend better than a poor friend;
If you can face the world without lies and deceit;
If you can conquer tension without medical help;
If you can relax without liquor;
If you can sleep without the aid of drugs;
If you can honestly say that deep in your heart you have no prejudice
against creed or color, religion or politics; then, my friend, you are
almost as good as your dog.

2011.

this year is almost over. it's been an interesting one. lots of things have happened. i've grown, a lot. i've learned. i've fucked up ALOT, but whats new. even so... things are good. i'm good. life could be better, but i'm living. my relationships with everyone are much different. some of the people i was closest to for years, i barely talk to. but i think of them. and we're different now.

we're always changing.
isn't it crazy?

maybe love will find me this year.
damn i hope so.

good times.

Front Royal Wrestling Federation...
i love my friends. i love what we have started.
it may go pretty far, and i hope it does.
it's just a group of adult kids at heart, doing something fun with our time.
shooting promos is so hilarious. i love all the people involved, all those talented mother fuckers :)

Rebelution
Tribal Seeds
Zion I

the show in Charlottesville was siiick.
if i could travel and follow all the bands i adore,
my life would be completely fantastic.
it's so nice to meet the band members and just chill and talk.
treat em like a friend, not a damn celebrity. they get sick of that.
Kat and I most definitely know how to work the system :)

Meet and Greets
i've been to a few modeling shindigs lately, and have met lots of new people.
it's overwhelming, and a lot to do if i want to continue with it, but it will all come in time.
i have a few things pending for the future.

eh yeah blahde blah. next semester i only have one class, and i plan on making good use of my extra time.
ha, we'll see how that goes with this procrastinator.

MUSIC

fever ray- now's the only time i know
mewithoutyou- in a market dimly lit
theophilus london- i want you
silversun pickups- booksmart devil
atmosphere- trying to find a balance
mf doom- madvillain- accordion
tricky- feed me- macinquaye 1995
pj harvey- before departure
the cardigans- no sleep
phil collins- in the air tonight
window- good old war
*for the widows in paradise- sufjan stevens
sister winter- sufjan stevens
gone beyond- akron/family
cool yourself- thao
indie rokkers- MGMT
time to pretend- MGMT
in the aeroplane over the sea- neutral milk hotel
yoshimi battles the pink robots, pt 1- the flaming lips
black is the color- espers
christmas tv- slow club
brandy (you're a fine girl)- looking glass
when i grow up (fever ray cover)- first aid kit
it's in your blood- lydia
teenage girl- darlings
broadripple is burning-margot and the nuclear so and sos
*radiohead- creep (acoustic)
creep (cover)- scala and kolacny brothers
on the bus mall- the decemberists
the engine driver- the decemberists
a record year for rainfall- the decemberists
ocean spray- manic street preachers
heartbreaker- mstrkrft
the death of me- city and colour
across the universe- rufus wainwright
disappointed in the sun- dEUS
*skinny love- bon iver
teardrop- newton faulkner
*2 atoms in a molecule- noah and the whale
happy up here- royksopp
helsinki- melanie pain & julien dore
*feeling good- my brightest diamond
feeling good (cover)- muse
oh my stars- a weather
crazy (cover)- ray lamontagne
mind power- a tribe called quest
goodbye i'm gone- another robot sunset
twice- little dragon
neighbor song- aunt martha
cream soda kiss- molly parden
by some miracle- philip selway
no you girls- franz ferdinand
ooh yeah- moby
there goes my love- the blue van
the oven of romance- phantom tails
good days bad days- kaiser chiefs
you will leave a mark- a silent film
dog days are over- florence and the machine
trap of mirrors- the pass
rat in the walls- the bravery
if work permits- the format
bulletbroof (acoustic)- la roux
sunshine- matt costa
astair- matt costa
*heartless (cover)- william fitzsimmons
float on (cover)- goldspot
19-2000 (soulchild remix)- gorillaz
excuses- the morning benders
videotape- radiohead
the infinite pet- spoon
written in reverse- spoon
katy on a mission- katy b
*don't worry, i'm yours- jason mraz, bobby mcferrin and israel kamakawiwo'ole

Cage the Elephant

Cake

Apocolyptica

Cage

Brother Ali

Art Official Intelligence

Poor Righteous Teachers

Aesop Rock 

Leftover Crack

Choking Victim

Wolfmother- Mind's Eye

8tracks.com
goodmorningandgoodnight.com

Theodore Isaac Rubin

“I must learn to love the fool in me- the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.”